Woman Of God,
“Why is this happening?”
“What am I supposed to learn from this?”
“Have You forgotten me?”
I prayed those questions like prayer more times than I can count. What made the season even harder was that I couldn’t see what God was doing. I wasn’t witnessing a breakthrough; no clear answers. I was waiting, and waiting can test your heart in ways few things can.
During that time, unknowingly, you kept waking me up every night for prayer, you kept saying Why is your mindset locked? Please give a little space for the Holy Spirit to squeeze Himself in. I always remember laughing that when the heart is open, what difference does it make? You didn’t give up on me, Temi (tears). You send devotionals to my WhatsApp with bible verse everyday non stop about God’s unfailing love. You wrote that God’s love is not proven by the absence of difficulty but by His presence within it.
I read that sentence over and over because deep down, I had begun measuring God’s love by my circumstances. When things went well, I felt loved. When things fell apart, I questioned it.
I sat with tears in my eyes, wondering what comes next. His love remained, and I began noticing it in unexpected places. In the friend who called at just the right time. In the Scripture that seemed written specifically for my situation. In the strength to get through another day when I thought I had nothing left to give.
Mama, thank you for these words: Mummy J: “Your circumstances do not determine your worth, your struggles do not cancel God’s promises, and your difficult season does not mean God has stepped away.
Thank you, Mama, for all you do that helped me recognise God’s love during one of the most difficult seasons of my life. What once felt like abandonment became one of the clearest demonstrations of His faithfulness. And for that, I will forever be grateful.
Until next time,
Kindred Hearts.🤍