My Faith Feels Different Now

Somewhere along the way, my faith stopped being a fortress… and became an open field.

Dear Friend,

One day, my faith was loud and certainly full of bold declarations and well-rehearsed answers. Then, without warning, it became… softer. Less about what I could prove and more about what I could hold.

My faith used to feel like a fortress, tall walls, strong gates, guarded against anything unfamiliar. Now, it feels like an open field. There’s still safety, but there’s also space. I’m not afraid of questions anymore; I’ve learned that God doesn’t flinch at them.

I’ve stopped trying to perform my belief like it’s a stage show. I’m not ticking boxes to feel “good enough” or praying in ways that sound impressive. These days, I talk to God in whispers while washing dishes, in sighs when my heart is tired, in laughter when something catches me off guard.

And yes, some people have noticed the change, and some worry. Others assume I’ve drifted. But I think I’ve simply drawn closer… closer to the heart of God, and further from the noise around Him.

If I’m honest, I don’t have as many answers as I used to. But I have a deeper understanding. And that knowing feels lighter, freer, more like love than law.

Maybe faith isn’t about clinging to certainty. Maybe it’s about leaning into trust.

And maybe… just maybe… that’s the whole point.

With a gentle heart,
Me